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Supernatural fanfiction sam thinks john hates him. John didn't like making a bunch of stops at rest areas.
Sam was about sure he bitten all his fingernails off. When Sam has stability at Stanford Azazel had Brady possessed and started manipulating Sam. He always wanted Sam to be able to protect himself, but what he did was beyond reckless. Blinking the tears away, Sam struggled onwards and the small crowd gradually dispersed, leaving the woman staring after him The difference is, I told the boy how scared I was instead of pulling the macho crap you did and kicking him out of the house. "You watch what you say," John growled, not really caring that it was Sam that he had pinned to the wall, just wanting to get his point Dean I hate to break this to ya, but if he's here then he isn't dead. Sam had heard Dean scream, and had also heard him scream at Sam that it was okay, even as he'd been burned. All Sam wants is for John to be proud of him but Sam is giving up that impossible dream, and when he makes a friend at a new school, he falls into a world of drinks, drugs, and daddy issues. Written By: Mello_McQueen. But for the most part, Sam acts like Dean is his biggest issue. Sam heard Dean call, and before he could even think of trying to get his bearings, Dean was in Sam's bedroom. "So here's the deal, Kid. And it was years ago but he still remembered it. "It's great having you here. His mouth and throat feel like they're filled with sand. Authoress Notes: I don't give Sammy enough love. I don't hate you, Sam. If you knew him, you'd understand: he deserves better. Oh, god, he thought, as he fell to the floor, the exhaustion of the past few days hitting him like a tonne of bricks. " Dean says quietly, and moves to leave but John stops him. How will Dean react when he sees his little brother again? Hurt Sam! Abusive John! Guilty/protective Dean! Even if it means watching those eyes he hates light up with excitement. As angry as he was with him at the moment, he knew Sam didn't deserve that. For a while he's really hot, and he can hear lots of voices. He deserved no sympathy whatsoever. " "And?" "Really, you think you can lie to me boy?" John snarled in his face. He knew he couldn't lie to Bobby. John could only hope that Sam had taken some kind of weapon with him to defend himself until they were able to find him. Pain. This woman, this stranger who barely knows him, Sam feels safe with. Even Mary's. And there, Sam feels the slow beating of a heart, steady against his fingers. Help them with short hunts in the area. Dean smiles beside him, mistaking Sam's tension for pain. Even with Dean giving Sam the cold shoulder recently John couldn't help, but think he'd be getting an earful about this latest incident from his oldest. I "Well I hate being stared at when I'm eating ok Sam. " Sam was shocked when Dean's hand went away, taking the ring with him. And no John didn't say to call Pastor Jim in two days Yes he did. XXX. Sam hated it when John drank. After Mary died however, he'd changed. "I don't hate him you ass. If he didn't know better, he'd say Sam was trying to go and get his dumb Sam isn't sure if Dad realizes it and condones it, or if. Author Notes: Just wanted to point out a couple of things - 1, The year is 1993, pre-cellphone era. Jun 24, 2009 · Sam starts school late, middle of first grade, but John tells his teacher that he thinks Sam will be fine. # "Long Time" by Boston Sam becomes lost after and argument with John. 18 Something Wicked: The Looking Glass Cracked By: AlElizabeth. Dad talks to him about the hunt, and Sam listens carefully. We can't predict him. He raised the gun to his head, steady fingers on the trigger, and he could swear he heard that stupid archangel's voice. This is just for fun. John wonders what Dean would turn into if Sam was ever killed. Drunk by the sounds of it. What he needed was a few days at Jim's to screw his head back on straight. Damn, Dean was getting on his nerves. Sam wants this so bad, he knows it's going to take all his knowledge. The Rest: Dean tries, he really, really does and Sam knows this and loves his brother for it, but every time he catches Dean looking at him with relief in his eyes, he also hates him a bit. Dean grabs his hands, spinning him around and pulling him upright. Dean is 17. "Stay here Sam. The Impala. - Chapters: 8 - Words: 8,726 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 3/22/2010 - Published: 3/6/2010 - Status: Complete - id: 5795644 Aug 7, 2013 · Sam pressed his fingers into the gash on his palm and focused on putting one foot in front of the other, with Lucifer keeping pace beside him. "About me? What… what is it about me? I know he's not like himself. Rating: Gen, PG. Sam doesn't blame him. Stopping by the Impala, he hesitated. Sometimes even when he didn't need to be. Sammy's too little, and I wasn't watching him. Dean pushed aside the comic book he was pouring over and lifted Sam onto a chair beside him. Sam is a pretty cautious boy. Dad doesn't appreciate being lied to. ), arched her naked tits against Dean’s chest, sliding easily against his sweat. Dean grabs the notepad again and starts scribbling away. Characters/Pairings: Sam, Dean, John. Featuring: Bigbro!Dean, Angsty Sam, and "John Winchester's A parenting" (emotional manipulation, negligence; no direct physical abuse) Sam wonders if he can make it to the table, pull out his books and act as if he'd been there the whole time. I don't think I will need to do very much work to get him camera ready," Kathy replied with a brief wink to Sam as she ran her hands through his gorgeous hair. Dean probably hates him for that. It was during a stop for gas John began really pondering their destination, and then Sam gave him an idea. Now, Sam didn't even know if his brother was still alive. John wonders if Dean would destroy himself or the demon population first. "Why. Dean consciously blocked Sam's view of John's body as he led him out the door. Genre: Gen. She points out that, according to everything she's read (and When John realized why Sam hadn't argued, it hit him hard. But he can do it, will do it. Sam had met him and been possessed by him, and the guy was a dick. # "Sympathy For the Devil" by the Rolling Stones. John hates that such a fear is aroused in his son. "Sammy, are you okay? Are you hur-" Dean stopped, a flicker of fear, anger, hatred and betrayal flashing across his face. And just when John thought he wasn't going to answer he beamed from ear to ear. He thinks you blame him too…" Caleb heard John sigh before the man spoke again. He isn't quick enough though, and Sam hears John scolding Dean. "No. He shook his head, opening his eyes slowly. He doesn't think Dean wants to be put down either. All at once. Following Children Shouldn't Play With Dead Things, Sam wants to leave because he thinks Dean hates him and doesn't love him anymore. " John watched as Sam slowly lifted his eyes to meet John's gaze. When Sam thinks of sacrifice he thinks of Dean first and foremost and hunting monsters with him seems like the least Sam can do, at least for now. " John introduced them and watched as his nephew returned his boys studying stare. So what's the point of living? WARNING Self-destruction Dean. He switches the phone to his left ear and opens the door. - Words: 313 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 2 - Published: 1/20/2014 - id: 10040061 John's heart bled at the desperation in Sam's eyes, knowing that his son was fighting mentally against the power that held him in a futile attempt to set his own powers free. He likes to think he's pretty smart for a ten year old. He knows Sam thinks Dean can't look at him because he broke the final seal and because he lied, but that's not why. ---Sam glared at the ground, backpack slung over his shoulder, feet nearly stomping the dirt. This was the side he never saw coming out from John Winchester. " He tightens his arms around Sam, heaving him up. He lies to Dean, to get him on board. Well, he's certainly smart when compared to Dean. While his father & Dean go on a hunt—the hunt finds him instead…Story is Dedicated to Sendintheclowns Rated: Fiction M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Horror - Chapters: 15 - Words: 57,252 - Reviews: 190 - Favs: 209 - Follows: 60 - Updated: 9/19/2008 - Published: 8/19/2008 - Status: Complete - id: 4485395 The boy whips his head up when he hears a cheery, "Morning, Sammy!" directed at him. It's When Sam finally stops moving, Dean lets him go, sliding his fingers out of him painstakingly slowly. Mostly John and Dean. "Bobby's. He knew John would hate them for what they did. We can just pretend for this story that Bobby is still alive. "Pleased to meet you. " Sam dares to smile, the expression so pitiful on his broken face that it makes Dean shudder. Not in here. "Mr. I'm worried one day he's going to just end it all. It's someone who confused room 142 for room 124. "Stay. "Dude Sam found him dead. Boy's this is your cousin Harry. "Hey, Sam. He was burnt out. The kid hasn't realized yet, and he'll probably hate Dean when he does. Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Angst/Hurt/Comfort - Dean W. I believe him. Then Dean pipes up: Well, Sam is buying a diary! And it's reeeally expensive, and Sam mentally punches his brother in the mouth for drawing their dad's attention over to him, because he knows that John Winchester is not going to be pleased and Sam really, really wants this journal Dean goes solo after a Sandman makes him hurt Sam. I told him that I didn't blame him and that he shouldn't blame himself…" "Well, he didn't believe you. Sam turns sheepish. " "You're drunk. "Come on son. " John rocked the baby distractedly, stopping the action when both Officer Hawkins and the middle-aged woman behind the desk turned to peer at him. Somewhere, Lucifer rages in his mind, but Sam doesn't listen. If that unwavering spirit would stay focused. " "No problem. The demons had said that he was, but they could lie. Then there was Sam, seriously that kid needed to get his priorities straightened out and quick. Title: Lucifer Sam Characters: Sam, Dean, John Rating: PG-13 for language Summary: Life and times of Sam Winchester, with a little help from Pink Floyd. Then he's kidnapped by something supernatural. He doesn't say a whole lot these days. (Film Crew AU) Language: English Words: 15,630 Chapters: 5 So for all these reasons, Sam really tries to love her, tries to find a part of him that misses her even a little. " John whispers in his ear, over and over again. Winchester, do you know your son can't read?" They move two weeks later, and John doesn't think too much about it. "I've talked to Sam about this. I want you to know that I'm not disappointed in you for not doing it. " Sam nods, "I thought that they don't come out during the day. He thinks about his brother's face when Sam growled I hate you, how Dean's eyes narrowed in that way that meant he was hurting but would be damned if he'd Dean hadn't given up even when the demons had been hurting him. Sam froze and turned towards his dad. He knew Bobby would be disgusted with the both of them, but he would never tell Sam that. Sam is 16, Dean is 20. "Thanks, Dean. " Sam still wouldn't look at him. Jan 25, 2006 · "Did I hurt you?" Sam asked. Not ever. John was hitting below the belt and the words weren't only hurting him, they were hurting Sammy as well. Worse, Sam dreams he has to kill Dean to save him. Sam had his legs bent up against his chest, chin resting on his knees. Sam hates me. " Sam where are you going?" John called. " "Pack your bag Sam. He could easily spend the night in the car, wouldn't be the first time. T for safety. Suddenly Dean stopped and faced Sam. Deep rooted anger. Misses him so much it hurts. Dropping the duffel, he ran for the front door, his father close behind him. So he sits there and listens as Dean tells him stories and describes little details that Sam thinks a four-year-old boy should have forgotten over time. Sam's head pressed back into the chair back so hard he thought it might bruise. And he didn't want to make his dad feel bad for actually trying. John has a duffel bag in each hand, and Dean has to take a step back to let him through. He would not make it. X A one-shot AU where Sam and Dean have an older sister named Lucy who takes care of them while Bobby and John are on a Hunt. Rated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Angst - Sam W. He doesn't think Sam is anywhere near perfect. LimpDean! LimpSam! HurtDean! HurtSam! ProtectiveSam! Pain! Torture! John! Mary! Hug! Breakdown! "Hi Sam, it's great to meet you. Dean and Sam are gone, but after a demon attacks the children in her town, she is left with no choice but to contact them, and pray that they'll help her. Can't you hold still for twenty minutes?" Sam shoots him a startled look; there's an edge of anger in it as there is so often when Sam looks at him, but he reins it back. That was a quality in Sam that John was sure he'd gotten from his mother. Not that Dean is dumb. "Do you think you could maybe not mention this until, um, after the baby's born?" "Sam," Dean growls. Don't be mad at me. Dean had been researching their next hunt on the laptop. Summary; John finds out something about his sons but what is he actually seeing? It's from John's POV so it's only what he thinks he is seeing not necessarily a true interpretation of events. He does not speak. Dean was between them again in a second, shoving Sam behind him protectively. I never tried to hide the truth from my son. "Deanplease. His head nods at the appropriate times, and John eventually leaves for the bar, feeling satisfied with himself. " "Me too. Ever since Sam left, he-" "You don't understand. He wasn’t expecting it. Dean/Sammy. Sam had just started to move when the fingers that had been lightly half gripping his neck suddenly moved to fully grip it in the sort of grasp that Dean used when both being supportive but also warning his younger brother not to even think about moving. Dad hates him. -- The pastor, an old friend of him and John, used to tell him something about the young boy Dean Winchester. Dean sat down next to Sam on the bed, mimicking Sam's position, pulling his knees up to his chest. Sam and Dean are raised into the film industry. "I The first thing Sam does when he finishes reading John's note, some bullshit about signs and a hunt that can't wait any longer, is spike the damn thing, along with the stupid fucking journal it was rubber banded to, into the motel trashcan so hard the thing overbalances and rolls to a rest under the bed. " Dean threw the napkin on top of the plate and stood. Making him feel less like Sam and more like Sammy, the little kid who still needs his big brother to look out for him. He'd have a good mind to give the boy a nice whack upside his head. - Words: 251 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 6 - Published: 5/18/2009 - Status: Complete - id: 5071207 Summary: On certain circumstances that keep happening, he thinks that everybody hates him. I didn't notice. BLOOD. I feel bad that thanks to my work he thinks John died for me, ignored him just before he died. Once the police officer and woman had turned their attention away from him, John held Sam tight to his chest, the infant not happy with being held so tightly. - Chapters: 10 - Words: 5,343 - Reviews: 35 - Favs: 47 - Follows: 34 - Updated: 5/5/2008 - Published: 5/2 "That's your bed Harry, Dean and Sam are in the room next to us. "Of course, nothing is ever good enough for him. John looked back up at Dean. The brothers have a long standing pact; they don't snitch on each other, as long as it isn't something stupid. It doesn't matter, though, because they all hate him. " He hands Sam the note and Sam glances down at his Dad's handwriting, detailing how Dean had his wisdom teeth removed today and won't be able to attend classes for the rest of the week. I hate him for making Dean think that he was never good enough. When he gave up hunting for school, Sam found himself itching to pummel something. Just what's going on in that head of yours to ever think like that, kid?--Present… "So you talked to him already?" John took a seat beside the old man before answered with a shrug. Bobby sighed, shaking his head unbelievably. And I do love him, though not as much as I once did which makes me a bit 3. Sam lifted himself onto the bed with those strong arms of his and John helped position him so his immobile legs were straight ahead of him. Sixteen years later the alphas go to a brothel and John takes on an interesting omega who carries his long lost sons name. Summary: In retrospect, Sam thinks that maybe the laundry room hadn't been the best of places to hide. And here he just happens to end up at the same hunt. "Hey, ca-an ya git me a g-glass a water Yeah, so not the first choice on Sam's to-do list. Sam shows Dean all the evidence he's got, the last messages John Winchester left behind, and gives a few theories in a voice flatter than day old soda. He thinks that I hate him, just like he thinks you hate him. When Sam was locked in the Panic room, all he could feel was pain. Dean walked over to him. , John W. Category: Supernatural. Thanks in advance for reading. "Please. The hinge squeaks, giving him away. "Sorry. " And Dean knew that, but something in the back of his mind was convincing him that Sam had heard them the night before. He'd hate himself if he hurt Jess, and he was pretty certain he would if she gave him the go-ahead to be rough with her. He's falling now, eyes open to the encroaching darkness, and for a second Sam thinks he should be scared, he should be angry. Graham that I didn't finish my assignments because of the flying monster that's terrorizing the city, I need to get it done. Maybe even normal. He was willing to bet a million dollars they were towards Dean. Ten years to the day of Sam walking out the door, John and Dean sat outside Sam's house, watching him run and play in the yard with his two children. I made him come and stay with me, but he hates it. Feb 21, 2011 · Fourteen-year-old Sam thinks about his family & recalls a particularly traumatic memory that left a rather timeless imprint on him which leads him to make a rather timeless promise to himself. I hate the responsibility that he put on Dean when he was only a kid. "Dean, I…I don't hate Sammy. But his hopes still soar as he pulls back the curtains. John pushes him, pushes so hard, he tries to make him fall in line, tries to make him his little soldier. Enjoy! (And don't forget to review! Sam stared down at him thoughtfully. Dean is moving around the small kitchen making pancakes, of all things. "Then help me understand!" Bobby frowned at the snap. O O At first, Sam thinks nothing of it and keeps going, when Dean grabs his arm and pulls him back. " The leader speaks up again, making Sam flinch at the ferocity Lo and behold, all of them pretty much told me they'd handle it how John did, and didn't even think the "let him rot" line was all that strange. Sammy hates him. "Out!. As much as John wanted to hate that trait in him, he couldn't. He snuggles his soft, downey head into John's shoulder, and in this moment John doesn't want to let him go. Nurses encouraged him to have his head checked out, but all he saw was the retreating shape of Sam, surrounded by flatlining machines and frantic doctors. " Sam had to know that Dean would have rather died than leave him. Someone thinks Sam is a good model for a portrait and Sam really needs some money. There are easier ways to show Samuel that you hate him. Sam knows for a fact that his brother hates them, but he himself can't get enough of the fluffy goodness. He tries, because the last thing he ever wants to do is disappoint Dean. One second John and Sam were feet apart, the next second John had Sam pinned to the wall, his hands fisted in Sam's shirt. Fortunately, she thinks he's a doll - a real doll! Sam must work with his father and help his brother. Maybe then… "Does this mean that you d-don't hate me?" Sam stutters from the doorway. Then his hopes sink like a lead balloon. " Sam called back walking even faster. Sammy is 12, and beginning to show the first signs of rebellion. WARNINGS INSIDE. Heaven forbid something come before that, Sam thinks, but doesn't say. Disclaimer: Supernatural belongs to Kripke and CW. Bobby looked worried but he admitted that of all the things Sam could be doing to deal with Lucifer, running is probably the least harmful. Dean had never done this to him before. It's you. He wants to see Sam. Apr 9, 2012 · Sam hears a loud crack from far away, a thud, his brother grunt, and then the white takes over everything and Sam doesn't have time to think anything else because then blackness takes over. You made something that makes him think that you hate him. I just let him sleep. Sam let tears flow down his face as he held the loaded gun in his hand, thinking over all the mistakes he made, all the people who died because of him, flashbacks, always flashbacks, of Ellen and Jo, Jess, John, and even Gabriel. On certain circumstances that keep happening, he thinks that everybody hates him. Dad hates me. The question was sincere and held no teasing at all. He didn't think Dean was really abusing his brother or anything like that, but sometimes the boy didn't think. " A sob escaped Sam, and he began gathering his meager "I hate farm animal!" Dean groaned, "Why do we have to be here?" "Because it's Sam's birthday and this is where he wanted to come, suck it up kiddo!" John replied to his son who was holding his nose. And unless you want me to tell Ms. "No John hates himself because Sam shouldn't be the one apologizing. The weight on Sam's bed shifts, and a warm hand encloses his wrist, lifting his hand up, and placing it against soft fabric. It's impossible to hate him anymore and how screwed up is that? I'm a demon! Hate comes naturally. Still, he wishes one of them would stop. " He was lying though. Sam carries Dean back to his motel room, takes care of him. They haven't got Sammy yet, though, he can tell by the yells and curses. It was terrifying for Sam to think he might need the hunt. None. "Lighten up, Sammy, it doesn't hurt that bad. It's the maid, Dean thinks. Dean tried multiple times to reach out to Sam, to get him to let Dean and John come back, but all his attempts were unsuccessful. He staggers a little, but Sam's small for his age, and his legs wrap around Dean's waist so they can both keep their balance. John watched Sam totter back to Dean. Sam didn't exactly hate their father, I mean he was his dad. You know that…right?" Sam pulled from his thoughts to realize that John and Dean had both approached the car, and by the look on his father's face, he could guess he'd been speaking to him. He didn't turn around when John began to speak. Naturally, Sam's tantrum goes up a couple of notches. Dean can't look at Sam because every time he does, all he can see is the broken expression that lurks in his eyes and Dean knows it won't ever go away. Grimacing, Sam shrugs. John didn't like making a bunch of stops at rest areas. Sam's still panting, but he looks absolutely beat, his eyes heavy with exhaustion. He'd never known that aggression was a natural part of him until his outlet was gone. But what Sam hates most of all, is that their dad has turned Dean into a mindless soldier, willing to do anything and everything it takes to make John proud. "What kind of question is that Sammy?" Sam shrugged. " He sighed, brushing the damped hair one more time with a soft touch. The boy's trust in him was already John didn't blame him, he hadn't shown the poor kid a lot of love even though it was obvious that John did love Dean. Jul 29, 2013 · And he couldn't exactly punish Sam, because he was only four years old. This is El Muerto, the one who got away, the job any self-respecting hunter would kill for. Author's Note: This is my first time posting here. Sammy, John thinks, scrabbling desperately in the dirt and pine needles, but strong arms grab him from behind, and the next thing he knows a cloth bag has been yanked over his head, his wrists bound tightly at the small of his back, and he can only grunt in protest. This is probably not the story to read if you like John. Sam slowly pulled himself up from the floor, his hand nursing his aching throat. " Dean said, as he swiped the bottle out of And John snaps. " Sam thought, before actually saying it Sam walked out fast. " Jun 7, 2010 · Michael tries to stop him, but Sam can't let him. " The kid has a point, as much as John hates to admit it. Hate it. , Dean W. So I've tried to put it into a context that makes me more comfortable, anyway. And had done this on purpose. He wakes drenched in sweat and confused, his heart racing and his hands shaky. " It's not just Sam. Sam had tried to get Dean to at least listen to reason, but of course Dean hadn't. His dumbass brother thought it would be a good idea to push Sam out of the way when the Wendigo went after him. His brother didn't give him too much processing time between each searing blow. "It's alright, Sam didn't mean it. Better to hurt Dean the only way one can truly hurt him without hurting his family. Dad is just too dumb to think that it is always Dean's fault. I think that's it. Freezing in mid-move, Sam felt his heart sort of stop even as he was slumping back to the On certain circumstances that keep happening, he thinks that everybody hates him. He found an article that seemed like a promising lead. He had twin girls, Amy and Emily. "There's about three vamps on the other side of the clearing, watch our backs while Dad and I take care of them. I hope so. Yes, though I think Dean took the brunt on that purposely. John caught him at the door. He just loves Sam Winchester too much to let it show. " "John-" "No, Bobby. " Harry spoke first and Sam smiled at him. Not a death fic. Sam's supposed to be on another hemisphere, for crying out loud. " Gabriel said while glancing at the doors to the den. "It was wrong of me to ask you to kill me. His dad had kicked him out, for getting accepted into John never found out from Mary what had happened to Sam before she died, but he and Dean became hunters and did everything to find the thing that killed Mary and stole Sam. "Dean! Dean!" Sam called out, "Come over here! You have to check these out!" "What, then funny looking goat things?" Dean asked sarcastically. Summary: Sam lies. Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Romance/Drama - Dean W. The youngest Winchester is…more sensitive and typically more vocal about it. But it nagged at him that Sam might worry when he woke in the morning and Dean wasn't there. "Okay Dean. " "Please don't do this. " John orders gently, pulling away from Sam. Maybe the right thing to do was to John watches him get up and down over and over for the better part of three hours, then finally says wearily, "You're making me dizzy, Sam. So he stands as well and says, "Fine. Dean doesn't care. Except John hadn't tried, and he prayed Sam didn't find out. Aside from worry he was also feeling anger. Sometimes you can get away with it but more often than not, Dad'll call you on stupid. Dean slips away, then, into unconsciousness. For Dean. "Did Bobby know what John did?" "You keep calling dad, John. Dean carefully removed the ring, flinching at Sam's cry knowing Sam must think that Dean wanted to abuse him too. Sam blushed mildly and nodded, meekly accepting her compliment. Now that Bobby'sgone (Sam can't bear to even think the word dead and put it with Hate: John hates telling the truth, Dean hates the loss of innocence, Sam hates the facts. Better to break him by using his increasingly careless attitude about himself. NC-17. He's just so…innocent still, despite everything he's been through. Then his eyes tracked the knife as it moved again, this time coming to rest over Dean's heart, the point just touching the fabric of his shirt. His eyes never left Dean, searching for any sign of the brother he loved. Hasn't for a couple years. He hates reality shows, because he doesn't believe 90% of whatever happens on them is real. "My silence told him that I agreed with you. John knew he was being hard on Sam, but that was only because he loved him. " Sam hates that he's selfish, that he's stubborn, that he thinks PT is a suitable punishment, and that he doesn't come to his school plays or soccer games. Limp/Angry Sam; Worried/Protective Dean; Protective John. So John thinks, I will give you a better tomorrow, and there will be no pain, no dislocated shoulders, no weapons. But the truth is we're all wrong. I don't think he's really going to care what I call him. Sam's urge to relieve himself hit him full force, but now Sam was determined to ignore it. There is blood. He was always irritable and cranky when he had a few too many. "I'm so sorry Sam, I'm so fucking sorry. John Winchester got out of the army and into the film business after meeting Mary. - Chapters: 10 - Words: 5,343 - Reviews: 35 - Favs: 49 - Follows: 36 - Updated: 5/5/2008 - Published: 5/2 Dean doesn't think he's screwed up his life, but Sam does, and he hates him for it. " A/N: So I hate John. Then he could live to tell Dean how sorry he is, how he never meant to say those things, never even meant to think them. Faint First: Sam receives his first stitches, Dean comforts him. He does this out of habit. He does not care. Sure, he had punched him, but to be honest, Sam deserved it. Jul 11, 2022 · Sam slumped up against his bed as his vision went blurry. It's me. Dean's, John's, Bobby's, Jess's. Why Sam Hates Werewolves. When Sam messes up on a hunt, John sends Dean away to train Sam. Sam thinks this will be his moment to shine but he can't seem to do anything right. Oct 6, 2023 · tad too late but john beats up sam like once; Sam Winchester Has Panic Attacks; my anxiety ridden bean; Summary. At least not until Wednesday. "C'mon, man. First Serious Wound Sam sighed and took another sip of whiskey, wincing at the sting behind the alcohol. " Sam wants to respond, to shut his brother up or reassure him or joke with him, it doesn't matter because he can't. Sam wonders if John is proud. Imagine if he had been able to do that all throughout Sam's childhood. You drop this off at my school tomorrow. " Sam's head rested against Dean's chest and he was tucked into the space between his brother Supernatural again. He can do it for Dean because Sam hasn't been the only one who's had to sit through a lost childhood. Stupidly jealous of a five year old, a five year old that the little bundle above him loved so entirely. Sam's eyes filled with tears and he felt his heart breaking. But I'm totally going with you. When Dean first left the room, his first instinct was to get in the car and just drive until he found Sam, common sense told him to at least check with the motel clerk first to see what direction he might have gone in. "I'll give you two some time alone. " Is the small, exhausted response. He thinks that I feel the same way you do. "Need to hit the head Sammy and don't even think about following me. Dean hates me. " Sam tells him to go to hell. Did he also resent Sam enough to hate him? He didn't think so, but he wasn't sure. Characters: Sam, Dean and John. Dad isn't too fond of stupid mistakes. Hurt his car. "I can make it stop, Sam," Lucifer says at one point. The group laugh and encircle him, making Sam feel ever so small. He makes himself sleep anyway, and he dreams that Sam is alone and needs him and misses him and hates him and wants him gone and rejects him. Of schoolbooks and facts he learnt so easily, of how to write the perfect essay, everything he knows about Dean, and everything he knows about Dad. Sam hates them a little. "Just shut the hell up and get some freaking sleep!" It definitely isn't one of John Winchester's proudest moments, hollering at his new born baby son, but he's too tired and wound-up to care. "Ah- shit, Dean!" Sam hissed at a particularly hard blow. He was beyond angry, he was livid. Sam takes a breath and gently pushes the door shut. Sam isn't even sure if the woman knows it, but Sam feels she understands him better than his own father, and suddenly he gets why it's not a smart idea to invest and grow fond of those temporary acquaintances Sam gets the chance to meet every few weeks. " "John-" "It's complicated Bobby. "Don't ever talk of your mom that way!" John roared, advancing towards He had a clean gun he couldn't use because his father and brother had lost enough, and he wasn't even sure they weren't desperate enough to try to bring him back. He calculates. All of them. Sam is 13. Meet up with them on breaks and hunt. He couldn't hate something Mary had given to her sons. There's something wrong. Instead of things going smoothly, Dean manages to piss off a witch, who decides to teach him a lesson. " So Sam sees it when Dean trips over the rug on the tiles and cracks his skull against the tub. " For the first time ever, Dean thinks he really does hate John Winchester. "Sometimes, he can make you think that you know him. His hand stripped over his cock, pulling him right up to the edge, when his brain caught up to his ears and registered the familiar slam of John’s truck door. I love him… he's the baby of the family… You're just mad that I'm not taking your shit anymore!" Sam yelled, and John snapped. Sam was sincere. He hates any show with mythology (especially Greco-Roman) because the writers always get the details wrong. John watched as Sam struggled to stay awake and to breath and he prayed that the ambulance would make it in time, but as the seconds ticked by John and Dean both watched as Sam grew paler and paler. If there's any drink around, he's drowning himself in it. It also made him question his motives. From 1. Sam snorts. " Dean whispers back. Sam tried to get around him, go for the kitchen door, but, cursing, John cuffed him on the side of the head, grabbed him by the arm and slammed him up against the door after soccer practice in the rain Sam catches a terrible cold and John takes care of him Rated: Fiction K - English - Family - Sam W. AU. But John had been so determined to keep Sam in his sights, wehre he could see him twenty-four hours a day, that he'd flat out refused Sam's offer then issued the ultimatum. I've already given Dean enough reasons to think I'm a slut. Bobby knew. Dad hates Sam couldn't think of a single lie that his father would believe. It's what I do. Sam thought Dean would be pissed and maybe punch him a few times over the weeks, and that was okay, he believed he deserved it. Dean gets injured on a hunt and Sam is left alone to continue working with John. I also know that if you had the guilt would have killed you. He hadn't argued because he'd thought that John had actually tried to stay behind and spend some time with him for once. "Do you think we are good people Dean?" Sam whispered. And some other times, he can make you think that you can read him. He doesn't hate horror movies, but he picks them apart, pointing out every inconsistency and inaccuracy until Sam hates to watch those with him. "But Dad thinks I am, so my mornings are sorta crammed. " Dean hates it when Sam gets like this. Dean frowned and finally looked at his brother's silhouette. Dub-con, Underage (Sam 15, Dean 19), John Finds Out, implied. "Lives of dogs, Dad. Though the ambient temperature was slowly dropping it was still uncomfortably warm and muggy. Sam's question to him left him wondering as well. "They wouldn't hate us. SPN SPN SPN SPN SPN SPN On certain circumstances that keep happening, he thinks that everybody hates him. Sam was able to rebel, to push back at John, because he, unknowingly, had the safety net of Dean around him, and as long as he thought Sam needed him, Dean wasn't going anywhere. "All you have to do is say yes. Devon, you didn't tell me he had such lovely bone structure and luxurious hair. After Bobby took the call that the headless bandito had been reported haunting cemeteries around South Texas, Dean started I don't think you understand the magnitude of what's going on with the kid. " Sam's phone rang as Dean pushed his way into the bathroom. He made a deal with a freakin demon! We burned his body, and ran all the tests, he's alive and he isn't anything that we can think of. Please let me know what you think of this story so far. "For, y'know, saving my ass. Denial works, right? Trigger warning for childhood He's a great hunter which I hate, hated him for at first but now…. Harry this is Dean and Sam. Sam crept out of the bathroom and tiptoed back towards his room. " John threw Sam to the ground and stood over him looking every bit like the menace he was. Little did Sam know that Dean had been in the parking lot looking up at the room while he had been talking to Sam. He blames himself for Mary's death. But Sam's not a little kid, so Dean won't ever know about this. John had told him he wasn't allowed to sleep unless Sam was sleeping, one of the rules John had kept even after the three months. Supernatural. "Yeah, I know I gotta tell him, it's just…" Sam sighs, "He already hates me. Teen!Dean and Teen!Sam with OC Rated: Fiction K - English - Family/Humor - Sam W. He hates me having to help him; he hates being how he is; he's grieving; he's losing control. Major Dean's angst. He always praised Dean and whatever he did was amazing John knew enough that he wanted it to be hard for that evil thing to find Sam again. I'm here, Dean repeats. John is convinced it's a demon, the demon, the one Sam says killed Mary Winchester; since Sam's psychic abilities became pretty clear reality, he's been getting more and more interested in Sam's notes, asking Sam about them, calling everyone he knows who knows anything about demons. Sam yelled, "You think she'd be proud of you? You think she'd want you to-" The nineteen year old's sentence was cut off as John punched him in the face, leaving an angry bruise on his cheekbone. "I jumped first, but I was fine. " "I hate you Sam. But you know what… Fuck him. " Dean turned his back on his shocked father and brushed the tears from his cheeks. He thinks things through. 'And daddy. why wouldn't he fight back?" Bobby looks down at Dean and sighs as he lands next to him. Sam's just standing there, eyes closed, hands pressed up against the wall. "Okay. Even if they didn't understand they could never hate us. "Dammit, Sam!" He roars, a stressful day definitely getting the better of him. " "He stopped being a father the second he touched you. "Where are you going?" Sam went to stand too but Dean pushed him back into the seat. Left alone while John hunts, Dean takes Sam on a routine salt and burn, he thinks. Sam wallows in his issues like he's going to die of a brain tumor within twenty-four hours. When he returns at the end of the day to pick Sam up, the teacher pulls him aside and asks, "Mr. And Sam decides that Dean's not allowed to go to the bathroom any more. Torture & past guilt come to haunt beyond imagination. John asked knowing that Dean wouldn't be able to dispute what he had just said. This is the part that Sam knows he will hate forever. He confronted Sam about it the second time Sam snuck out and Sam told him. Caleb reinstated contact but Dean didn't have the energy to truly keep up with his best friend. Rated: T. Sam is left with John's military and cruel torture that starts to turn him into an unemotional soldier. Sam and Dean were in a cheap motel room in Madison, Wisconsin. He's not. Continuation of The Missing and The First Week. Could Sam going to college have given him some kind of inner hate because he couldn't escape himself? It made him question his feelings. Sometimes he feels bad because Dean is in trouble just because he makes a stupid mistake. "I've got you, Dean," he whispers, and his son clutches him even tighter, if that was possible. I really hate him. It hurt to discover that Dean really doesn't trust him or think of him as anything more than a monster. " Sam nodded slightly and they stood up. 'DEAN! DEE DEE DEAN!' For a split second John was jealous. Sam trembled with nothing but fear under his grip. " John looked up with a dark look in his eye. And maybe John didn't say it at all and it was just a pissed-off cop talking. Dean was starving for approval from John, which tells me he was more used to criticism from John than praise. This time, Sam believes him. " Sam told him, moving forward and pulling the Sam drops the bag to the ground with no regard for the contents, face set. But this, this was different. "I think he's right. Maybe he thinks Sam is finally the perfect soldier. John went to change his clothes and wonder what Sam's first steps had been like. Sam heard him curse as something in the kitchen fell. Dean and John never understood Sam was different. , Sam W. Jesus Christ, Dean was trying to kill him. "N-no s-sir. Common sense, for once, won out over his instinct. And he deserves better than that. Winchester?" Sam felt Dean shift behind him and then a moment later he jerked and grunted at the first lash across the middle of his ass. Another horrific memory quite literally crashed into him, nearly flooring him. Sam turned around rolling his eyes. If I had known then, I would have been calling him John all along. Sam wondered if this is how those mythical creatures that his father loved to hunt more than he loved his own son felt 5 days ago · Sam had rolled his eyes. Sam blinked several times. Sammy hates it, John knows that. He's going to hell for eternity, it seems like a normal response. Thirdly, this is a John Winchester fic, and while I don't paint him in a particularly heroic way, I'm not bashing him either, so if you absolutely hate John Winchester and think he's just the worst, you may not want to read this. Pre-series. I don't. Tells her that Sam's a reader. Dad's car once. "S-sam…" John slurred. Without him…Dean didn't want to imagine it this time. Sam wasn't going to think about that, though. " "He doesn't hate you," Dean insists. ' Sam grinned as if reading John's train of though All he has with Sam is this. Sam shifted in the front passenger seat, the upholstery sticking to his body in spite of the wide open windows. "That's not fair, and you know it" Dean snarled as he looked over at his father. Sam did what anyone would do in that situation … he faked it. "I think it's a valid question. There is always Assured that the ambulance would be there within a few minutes, John slammed his phone shut then kneeled down beside Sam. But he'd have to let him know it's wrong. , OC - Words: 606 - Reviews: 2 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 4 - Published: 11/22/2013 - Status: Complete - id: 9865918 But Sam still clenches his hands into fists and grinds his teeth as the artist begins the first stroke. Teenchester, Sam 17/Dean 22. This is just going to piss him off. "I'm on hold," he mumbles. " He whispers. "I'm worried about the black dog too dad, but I think Sammy was also getting sick. John would never even know the difference. All he saw were hate filled eyes glaring at him. "He doesn't have a head, Dean. " John threw a look to his friend, demanding some understanding—which ironically, he usually the one who didn't and Bobby on the other way round, did. "If you say so. It's really him, we just don't know how. .
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